Baqaadgi

Tumhe shayad ehsaas nahi ho raha, par waqt itni tezi se guzarta ja raha hai ki tumhe kuch mehsoos tak nahi hota. Wahi 5-6 kapde, wahi purane joote, aur wahi office se ghar tak ke raste—din kab haath se phisalte jaate hain, maloom hi nahi chalta. Is monotony mein yaaddash dhundli hoti jati hai aur saal kab guzar jata hai, pata nahi chalta. Isi tarah tum 20 se 21 ke ho gaye aur jald hi 30 ki dehleez tak pohunch jaoge.

Is dauran agar tumne khud se har din ek nayapan nahi laya, toh tumhara mann kabhi jagega nahi. Waqt yunhi chala jayega aur ant mein bas ek yaad baaki rahegi ke ek zamaane mein hum bhi naujawan the. Phir sirf afsoos hoga ki jahan jaana tha wahan ja na paye, jahan ghumna tha wahan ghum na paye, jinse milna tha unse mil nahi paye, aur jise jo batana tha woh bata na paye.

Tum ek afsoos se bhari zindagi ki taraf badh rahe ho. Agar tum isi tarah chalte rahe, toh tum is sanha (tragedy) se wakif hoge. Is afsoos se milna mat; waqt rehte sahi kadam uthana, kyunki jo afsoos ek baar reh jata hai, woh hamesha ke liye afsoos hi ban kar reh jata hai. Baqaadgi (consistency) ek khatarnak cheez hai, isse hamesha pabandi mein rakhna chahiye. Baqaadgi ek zarurat bhi hai aur ek shraap bhi; isse namak aur cheeni ki tarah apni iccha anusar dhaalna seekho.